Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in vineofmine's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
3:42 pm	which ones for you, you decide. ok, here's what i'm posting for my house in the woods! ___ looking for: female, ages 18-40, who would like to help and contribute to building a house in the woods (exact location not set yet-this can be discussed) which will run without electricity or plumbing, etc. there will be no frequent trips to towns or cities for supplies-as much as possible i would like us to be able to live off the land and nature. we'll plant our own food, etc. person must like animals and be a hard worker (i expect us both to put forth the same amount of effort.) must be in fairly good shape and good health. i am interested in living here for a considerable amount of time if all goes well, but other party may leave at any time, of course. i am also interested in possibly making a documentary of the expirience. if interested, i would like to have a meeting in person to discuss more of the details, etc. if you have concerns on me (i will be willing to provide you with any information on myself you'd like) or any questions, feel free to contact me at: ___ etc. etc., you guys @ live journal don't need my contact information Current Mood: excited (24 Comments |Comment on this)
3:35 pm	i'm getting older and i need something to rely on talked to Joey. she said i was silly for not going to cali with her. she begged me to go with her. said she was going to go whether i came with her or not, but she didn't want to go alone. i asked her, "why not go with milo?" she said, "he might be a drag. plus, he's busy with his jobs." is it ok for me to let her go alone? i told her i just couldn't go right now, so...i guess thats what she's gonna do. unless she was jus bluffin'. Current Mood: blah (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 15th, 2005
5:09 pm	people are stranger we had sex. and now i feel like i want to get away to that house in the forest more than ever. i told her that i didn't want to have it if it were going to mean something. i know it's bad to say. but it was true. she said it wouldn't. she asked me to just take a small trip to california with her. i said maybe. in highschool i remember a girl saying that another girl never gave a guy a blow job unless she wanted to trick him into something or was in love with him. think that's true? joey did that a while ago...should've i taken some kind of warning from that? i knew this thing was weird from the beginning. Current Mood: worried (22 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 16th, 2005
5:56 pm	the boundries blur. i...made out with Joey last night. and though it seemed fine at the time, now i feel a little odd about it. Current Mood: confused (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 28th, 2005
6:19 pm	music we make to make the crowd jump. i just don't feel like much of anything is good anymore. not like the world is going bad. it's just that it left me behind or something. like i missed something somewhere. our president sucks. my moods suck. sex doesn't help. weed doesn't help. i used to be into those things. i've tried them again lately, but they just make me feel more empty. because i didn't do them because i wanted to. i do them beacuse i don't know what else to do. when i do them is just feels like i'm sinking deeper. my friends have all moved on. found partners and quit the job we all worked together. i'm just still here, and i feel like i should be doing something, too. like they're all moving forward and i'm staying still. like i missed something i was supposed to do. and i don't know when so i can't get back on track. but nothing makes me happy anymore. nothing. i mean that. the best i find is sometimes i feel peaceful. sometimes it's nice to sit in the sun. i feel like i don't belong here. but i'm scared to leave with no idea or no path. no passion or excitement. i don't know what to do, but i've never felt that i'm missing something so much. pretty soon some crazy cult is going to read this and think i'm a perfect target. Current Mood: depressed (10 Comments |Comment on this)